I’m contemplating….. yes contemplating of doing something great. So great I’m afraid I’ll fail. Not because it can’t be done, but because my faith in myself is lacking. Which is actually the point of doing this something of great. To have a year of focus, growth, renewal and to change. So what’s the problem? What’s the challenge that I have doubt within? It’s something unnecessary and healthy to my future.
Deep breath in, deep breath out. The problem is my past. I recognize that I have a pattern. I’m so predictable that something so simple as this seems impossible.Once I actually voice the words many who read this will be kinda shocked at such a big deal over NOTHING!!! But it’s something. Its something to me. The scars run deep and the hurts burn through. Maybe I’ll extend the time frame…maybe not. I’ve decided to take it one year at a time.
But I will be a better person for it. More grounded. More focus. Healthy.
For in diversity, I will bloom.