My David

I think that if I lived in another past time during the reign of King David, that I would be fully enamored and probably the president of his fan club. He would be my One Direction crush, my Matthew MacConaughey, my Gerard Butler or perhaps even my Trevor Linden of the time. I would have his face sculpture and etched on my bedroom wall and swoon with butterflies and batted eyelash every time his presence came near to mine.

I realized something last night while reading David’s psalms. These words are so powerful, they are raw with intimate depth from a man’s heart to his heavenly Father and I’m impressed. This man knows how to write. This man feels the depth of life and it permeates his soul. This man is beautiful and handsome and I think I have a crush on him. I stop and think for a moment about David and his life. His writings sing praises and blessings as well as confess his darkest sorrows and struggles. Joy, happiness, anguish, turmoil, despair, and renewal are all themes recorded in his words. His heart is exposed and he is seen. Truly seen.

Think about it.

He was a warrior and not just in the minor leagues. 1 Samuel 18:6-7 stated that after war when King Saul and David returned the women would dance in the streets with sing “Saul has struck down his thousands, and David his ten thousands.” Ladies, he was Gerard Butler in 300 only FOR REAL and besides you know what they say about a man in uniform, I’m sure it rang true back then as well.

As a Shepard boy, not yet warrior not yet king; he did whats others feared and when they lacked the faith he stepped up to the plate. There was no grand entrance, or pomp and circumstance when faced with the enormity of Goliath who stood before him. He was no skilled warrior like those who stood beside him. He had no years of experience in combat or military training also like those beside him. He was a boy and unlike the men beside him when the time came to take a stand, he stood. He stepped up to the plate and swung. Literally.

Momentary pause of reflection…..

Don’t we all face Goliath’s at one point or another in life? How many of us just stand there too scared to move, or how many of us take the swing? I think that often we get overwhelmed with the idea that the required response is directly proportional to the epic size of the Goliath that faces us. Only most times it’s not until later we see with true vision – after the fall of pride or the calm after the storm that we see it was all a matter of perspective. I see this trait in David and my respect for the man greatly increases for where my faith would have lacked, his delivered. To have a man take a small step in faith when faced with something so big and overwhelming is a trait that is to be admired and appreciated.

AND YET….

there’s his fatal flaw or rather that one thing in life he will for ever be known for in the history of mankind. Talk about the epitome of small town gossip gone global…..and historical.

He struggled. He suffered. He failed. There was the adultery with Bathsheba…. oh and the cover up MURDER with her husband Uriah – of which he paid dearly for. Of course I’m not advocating and justifying his sin but what I do love to read about it is his Psalms. Maybe it’s the character developement like in a novel that tugs at my heart, you can feel his remorse and see the pain and anguish in his writings.

Side Note….

It’s at this is the point where if in a relationship I would say “sooooooooooo hey, it’s not going to work. There’s a boundaries/consequences thing, you know the whole MURDER and fatal attraction craziness, that I just cant allow for in my life. Best of luck to you a Bath. Besides I don’t share well. TTFN”

I realize He was no different than any man on this earth. He was human with human desires and human weakness. For me his story reminds me of God unconditional love even in times of sorrow, sin and pain and that God can take something bad and make it work for his own glory. I mean, the birth of Christ came from the lineage of David and Bathsheba. So eventually all things work out for the good of those who love him and it is written that through it all He was considered a man after God’s own heart.

I’m reflecting on the character traits of man like David (prior to Uriah’s murder) that is to be desired. He was a warrior, he fights for his family and works hard. He’s a lover, he shares his innermost thoughts with those he loves. He loves his LORD. He brought his family up in the way of the LORD. He was not perfect and had a past, he was human and struggled with sin but he was a man after God’s own heart and through him extended grace and just leadership over his household.

I’m not going to go and post pics of men on my wall and I’m not actively looking for a David in my Life but I do have Goliath moments. When life becomes lonely and overwhelmed with too many Goliath’s, I look to my Father for strength and wisdom. For he hears my sorrows, he collects my tears and he has written in my heart his name and I am his. He is my heavenly Father and in Him someday I will find my David, but until then I am perfectly alone.

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